Brokedown today..... sad.....

Damn wei......today is just NOT my day.... damn suey.... firstly... my voice dint exactly recover..still sounded like a rusted robot when i talk, then i found out...Eugene Lee got the kecemerlangan tatasusila award!!! Fuck!! I felt I deserve the award whole lot better than him!! How the fuck did he get chosen in the first place??!! For the first time in my entire miserable life, i felt as if i need to fight for this, so i did. I went on a quest today to actually find out the members of the selection commitee, as expected, no teacher gave me a accurate answer but further digging made me discover that Pn. Tan (why doesnt that suprise me?) is the leading selection member for the form 6!! Damn wei!! I mean, did she delibrately NOT choose me? Everybody in the whole school knows that she is prejudiced against weak student who failed her paper. But, i do not what to think of her that way, she is my teacher afterall, i do not intend to think anything negetive about her at all. So, after talking to Pn. Kamariah, Cik Farizan and En. Izwan, I went to the staff room to look to Pn. Haslin and coincidently, Pn. Tan is there! I looked at her normally, and proceeded to scan the room to look for Pn. Haslin, then, she said, "What is the matter , Joseph". Theres a mixture of fustration, anger, sarcasm, and pissed off tone in her words. So I said, "I was wondering why i did not get the kecemerlangan tatasusila award", in the most polite and nice manner.. that i think really triggered her 'DiVA' mode and she went on to say in her usual 'diva-ish' kind of way something about its not up to me to decide whether i'm deserving or not and stuff alike and she said that she asked 'a lot' (this should be emphasised) of teachers and they did not even mention my name! And blah blah blah....Keep in mind that i did not recieve the intelligence that she was the head of the selection commitee. Okay... that really did it, i pretended that i accepted the answer and walked out of the staff room, angrier than ever before, her very words just screams at me that she IS the one who selected the people. With that i returned to class, fuming... then I saw Pn. Haslin in Upper 6 Akas, so i went in and started to confine in her about how terrible i felt, how useless and hopeless i felt. Everything i've every done from form 1 until now has amounted to nothing? I actually lost to that fucker Eugene? What sort of aspect have i lost out to him? I GOT NOTHING!!! I've lost out on kecemerlangan koko beacuse i was not the president of Interact, and st. John (which is rightfully mine in the first place!) and now the award that i felt i deserve has been snatched away from me without giving me a chance to compete....FUCK!!! Kan Ni na bu chau cibai! how could this happen? why? i kept on asking these questions to Pn. Haslin, under the pressure and huge emotional surge, i cried. Yes, i actually cried in front of her... cause i felt as if i have no friends, everyone is taking advantage of me, like i am not given any form of reconigition, how in signifigant i was in teacher's eyes, in everybody's eyes.... damn... this was proven to me when my 'friends' so called dub thee, just stood there and ignored me, no one came and console me.....Pn. Haslin said that I need to take this fall positively and look on the bright side of things... maybe my time isnt here yet she said. She understands how hurtful it can be as she herself has exprienced it, but what can people like is do? Decisions has been made and its as if me, questioning this is ever gonna change that. I said i know.....i just what to know why....... in truth i was seeking closure. She said a lot of things that really helped pull me up... she said she believed in me and that i can rise from this....
Well, after that, i went back to class to find myself digging futher into self pitying....no one came and console me except fro Chern Yen and Arul.... this shows that in the whole upper 6, theres only 2 people who actually notices me... who actually treat me as their friend.... then i told them my feelings..... and out of all people, a pro-eugene came and campur in our conversation, Shalini started to say how inferior i was compared to Eugene and how my absence in class yesterday has actually helped many people understand Pn. Yen's Chemistry lesson. By that she is actually implying that the whole class can actually learn better if i was not in the class!! FUCK HER! I rather transfer if this is the case..... damn... then Pn. Yen came in.... i asked her for yet another closure in my self depression.. the whole story was this.... Pn. Tan, being an exprienced form 6 teacher, was given the responsibility to select the people who is eligible to get the awards....not just for this, for all the other awards as well, as this award means nothing to them and that time is pressing on her, she has no time to actually ask the teachers one by one to find out the names, so she actually asked Pn. Yen for nominations, and from there she would ask the other teacher's opinion. Then i asked, why wasnt my name mentioned? She said that my name not mentioned was just a hindsight, my name was somehow 'forgotten' as in her opinion, Eugene stood out more than me by a little bit....... WHAT IS SO FUCKING SPECIAL ABOUT THAT EUGENE??!! IS IS BECAUSE HE'S MORE INTELLIGENT THAN ME??!!! Sighs.... then she go on to say that this award is nothing.... that i do not need to fret or worry about this as everyone will be reconigised by the end of the year by their respective teachers... and she said, instead of looking at the cup as half-empty, why not look at it as half-full? In a sense, she did make sense...so, i accepted her answer and with Pn. Haslin's advice, begun to accept this closure.... my time isnt here.... opportunities being snatched away from me by someone undeserving....is all part of life... its a cruel life... life isnt fair... come to think of it.... since when is life fair? We see people like Daniel Radcliffe and Rupert Grint getting famous just because of their looks and that Harry Potter casting isnt open to the rest of the world..... life's not fair.... It will take me time to fully accept these reasons.... but i am accepting it by the minute....sighs.... just want to vent out my feelings in my blog.... if u dont mind of course.... sorry for the long winded story.....
And, Alven and Fareez's script progress is worrying me.... our IU id approaching, our actors are all ready, but... without a script, we cant progress, how they can produce a script in time la, i sorta understands that they are under a lot of pressure, with their midterms being just next week, they are really stressed.... but thats why i kept asking them, to help them out, not tp pressurize them.... if they need help, they can approach me....i just hope that they can do it.
The form 3s, I hope the fire of Interact is still burning actively in ther hearts, dispite the exam pressure, i hopr they can still stay loyal to Interact....
So, thats all from me, this is your cap'n, signin off!!

My voice is lost....where can I find it???

Today on MC.....sighs... its good la cause i can finally rest... but FUCK LA!!!! Now cant speak already....my parents vaguely understand me and my sisters dont even understand my meaning at all!! Its damn hard to speak!! I cant even express my needs properly....damn... i can only type out in words in this blog....ahhaha!! I'm gonna make dat Kelvin compensate for making me lose my voice... at least i must make him treat me lunch....hahahahha. But overall ok la.... today absent from school made me miss out on the new Chemistry chaper Pn.Yen just entered...Electrochemistry.... damn wei... but i think she wont go too far 1... and i missed out on the St. John's photography session...hahaha as if i care about a stinking photograph... getting my photo taken in a club which I've been active in for 3 years and its president post was given to someone who's only been in the club for 3 months, is an INSULT!! I'm actually happy that I've missed today's photography session...ahhahaha but i am indeed worried about 1 thing.... now that i've lost my voice.... how the fuck can i take my MUET speaking test??!! damn wei!!! If my voice doesnt return by my MUET speaking test and it cost me my band 6..... I"M GONNA KILL DAT BASTARD KELVIN!!! losta things i tak puas in de science club but i don wan 2 say it out cause of my small power..... MOST of the high ranking BODs such as Kah Chun, Eugene Lee, Yen Yen, Boon Ling, Jia Yaw, Sze Wei, Pey Ying, and many more dint not help out until the end.... me and Wai Kuan have to handle everything from top to bottom.... and during the initial meetings to dicuss about this science fair, i was given the most useless job and was hardly seen as a BOD at all now... i'm suffering as they all are happily dancing around with their voices intact,..... i cant help but feel that this si al a ploy to sabotage me so that i wont get a band 6 for my MUET.... fuck wei.... cibai.... hope this is not the case la.... will be updating in case i forget anythingg...
this is your voiceless cap'n, sigin off!!

Science Fair today......lost my voice....

Whoa!! Today was the science fair organized by the Science and Maths club...VERY VERY BUSY!!! The day started with the general preparation of the labs, decorating, alocating places, getting the chemicals and stuff...but i really dint expect the chemistry lab would be so stuffy, hectic and messy!!! WOW...today really did it... i'm really pushing myself to the limit here.... even though I'm only an Auditor in the Science Club, i felt as if i'm doing the work of a high ranking BOD! damn....
setting the workload aside, today, i bear witness to many fantastic science projects, raging from the usual volcanos to complicated projects on Boyle's Law. Every one is equal to another, if not superior than the other. Man.... the competition sure is tough this year! Hahaha, we the science club came up with a last minute "optical illusion" project. Actually this idea was Pn.Yen's, she asked us, the Science Club members to conduct the project...our president, Kelvin, selected me to present the project....LAST MINUTE!! I have to get a 1-min education on optics to be able to explain well.... but..we won second place for the Form 6 category!!( I seem to have an affinity to be second in WHATEVER i'm in or doing...I got second also for last year's science fair, got VICE-President in Interact, got VICE-Secretary in St.John's, and VICE-President in the Lonely Club!!fuck....)...Even though we've won second place...it doesnt mean that I(i'm emphasing on the I) dont have to pay a price for it... I've lost my voice...now i can barely speak clearly...fuck wei... its because i've been explaining the SAME stuff OVER and OVER again WITHOUT drinking a single drop of water!!! I've told Kelvin to buy me a drink...but HE DID NOT DO IT!!!! Cibai..... now lost my voice ledy.... my cheek-bone sore somemore.... damn....The worst thing is...most of the organizing commitee left early!! They never stayed until the very end... leaving me, Wai Kuan and Pn.Yen alone to do the clean-ups....kan ni na bu la!! When allocating the jobs... give me such a low grade job and now....I have to do the MOST work.... a bunch of pretenders!!! Sial.... Now i've lost my voice because of them....
Besides losing my voice for the day... theres nothing really to report...oh yeah... did i mention that Jason Kerk's project was the Exploding Volcano? He did the same thing as You Jin did last year but he added a explosive mix of chemicals that explodes when ignited...but the irony is... this project of his failed to get a placing for the Form 5 category but his other last minute project did...he did about biodiesel for his other one...hahahhahaa....the IRONY!!! ahahhaha, anyway, i'll be posting the video up and some photos...

This has been your cap'n, signin off!!

Pictures!!! from the acting workshop!!

This is a short video of Julian's group acting out a scene from IU Play 2004, "National Service"
The same video but longer.....

Hectic....SIAL!!!

Whoa.....today really hectic wei.....its because of the maths and science week which is organized by the maths and science club. Actually nothing 1 really, the thing that makes it hectic is the tomorrow's science fair. Wow...today whole day running between labs, helping all those people to get thier experiments working, getting their placement, getting their apparatus and chemicals they need etc....WHOA!!! really really tired and hectic!!!But, in a sense, this year, the competition is stiffer, as there are many class taking part and their experiments are all up to the par with the form 6s....unlike last year...hahahaha! Oh...today ho... i got pissed at something in the lab somewhere round 11 or so...Mr Chew was teaching his class how to do the soap experiment and when he finish explaining, they want to ask for my help i think to get the materials or something...so they called my name, i just happen to be at a nearby table when they called me and thats when i heard what Mr. Chew said. He said, in a rather rude and intimidating manner, "NO! Dont....dont...", the highlight was his facial expression when he said it...damn wei! What the fuck was that? why did he have to show that facial expression??!! Just because he's leading this elite students team (one of them is the best PMR student in Malaysia) he can go all diva on me.....fuck....this makes me hate him even more.....not only him...his students....damn wei....you just wait....mr chew...i'll prove it to your fucking face how i will get fantastic results and slam it to your arragoant face and piss is down your stinkin face and make you drink from it.....damn....what did I ever do to you??!! Setting this shit event aside.....everything is ok la....
Owh yea... at the LDDS meeting today....Wei Xun sorta went soft on me as he sorta understands the predicament i've placed myself in....so, he didnt give me any serious job for FoA...have to thank him for that....if he doesnt understands....wow....i dunno what will happpen to my sanity wei.... too damn busy....
AND......I GOT MY CAMERA BACK!!!! hahahaha, after this post..i'll post up the pictures Kevin took during Friday's acting workshop....he appparantly shot some video too... hahaha, ok la, this is your cap'n, signin off!!

Feeling...down...

Hey everyone....sorry if i sounded dready today....feelin down today....dunno why...cant help but feel as if i got no friends and no one seems 2 care about my existance at all.... is being handsome so important? why is it that people who are handsome get more friends than those who are not? what's wrong with me? Why does everyone of my peers hate me so much? what have i done?
what did i ever do to them? sighs.... why do i feel this way u ask....well.... i just browse through my 'friends' friendster.....all of them wrote testimonials to each other....obviously indicating that i've been left out of the circle... damn..... its this like this that makes me wanna give up living.... but with God, Jesus, my Form 3 juniors, my Form 5 Interact BODs, my chruchies, and my cell group-mates, it keeps me going on.... AMEN to that!!! sighs.... nth much happen today... nth pertinent anyway... so... this is your blue cap'n, signin off!

Boring DAY!!! Completed KINGDOM HEARTS 2!!!!

Sighs.... today is a saturday....very boring!! Malas wanna study....even though slacking but still... sighs....Hahaha the irony is... I've actually completed the bane that's been hindering me from studying....KINGDOM HEARTS II!!! Wow... its the BEST game i've played this year!! The ending was superb and unexpected... the gameplay was wow....and the soundtrack is blew me away!!! Its a must play game for all those who own a PS2!! ahahhaa... finally... finished it... now i can really concentrate on my studies...sighs....
Nothing really happen today.....went to Jusco with my family... its been a while since i've been there...nth much has changed... as much as i'm tempted to thr stuff they are selling... the empty wallet in my pocket just reminds me on how poor i am...sighs....hahahahahhaha. just go there to unwind also can de la!! ahhahaa
will be editing this post as i feel that i've left something out... but cant figure out what it was.... so... this is your cap'n, signin off!!

Acting Workshop!!!! FUN!!!!

WOW!!This post might just be my second DECENT post after all!!! ahhahaha. Today... REALLY had fun wei! As all of you might know, today is the day which i organize the acting workshop for the Form3 Interactors who will be acting in our IU play. Well, we SURE had FUN!!! As promised, i gave the two scripts, National Service and Memoirs of Jonathan English, both of which I've acted in as the lead, for them to act out. I've split them up into 2 groups and gave them from each script, a challenging/funny scene for them to act out. And seriously, i felt guilty about giving group 2 the NS script, cause, in my opinion, its really a hard script to grasp. Hahaha, to my suprise, they did it very well!!! I was kinda disappoited in Group 1's performance as I felt they are not taking this workshop seriously, they never tried to sink into the emotion of the script, instead, they have TOO much fun with it. Its good to have fun with the script, as i told them, but having too much fun is whole other story. How was the 2 potentials you ask? Well, Julian really lived BEYOND my expectations. He REALLY did well in this workshop and I'm sure he'll get the lead role in the upcoming IU play. He's really IN within the character and eventhough he's playfull, his sense of commitment and dedication and how he takes this as a medium of fun and seriousness, impresses me. He's beyond my expectations and I may be looking at a potential succcesor to take over my position! WOW is all i can say about this guy, I'm looking foward towards working with him. As for Darren, overall, he's ok, but he kinda disappointed me in the acting department, I expect him to sink in the emotion as Julian did but he's..... VERY STATIC!!! No expressions at all! I've told him this and I hope that he can improve on this skill of his. But overall, OK!! This whole workshop has been a GREAT fun! Everyone really had fun and from this workshop, i knew what to expect from this bunch of excellent people to whom I will be working with. I've snapped some photos and I will post it as soon as it becomes available. Why? you ask, its because Kevin has my camera! He accidentaly brought it home;)
Besides the workshop today..... today's MathsT1 class was...should I say....enjoyable?!!?? ahhahahhaa. For the 1st time....I ANSWERED HER QUESTION CORRECTLY!!! HHAHAHHA! And, i've finally picked up the courage to tell her that I want to drop Literature in English for my STPM.... suprisingly......she did not scream at my face as i predicted she would.... instead, she sorta understands why I've come to the decision....hm.. i'm starting to have second thoughts about her already......hahahahha.
Anyway, besides these two... theres nothing left of today to talk about....so, until next time, this is your cap'n, signin off!!

FAILED my MATHS1!!!!!!!! Ahahahahaha and skipped tuition 2day!!

Yo guys!!!! Hahahhaa how r ya'll doing 2day!! nice i reacon....Sighs... today damn tired again....dint sleep a wink again... wonder what's wrong with me.... cant seem to sleepp....late nite studying chemistry also cant go in.... damn wei.....sighs...
Today, got the club photography session... whole day missed class... but its not as if teacher;s teaching anyway... giv out papers oni...oh yea.... as predicted.... I FAILED MY MATHS 1!!!! Here's da paper which i got back.... hav a look.... oni got a damn 6%!!!!

As i said... I dun give a fuck about this damn test... as long as i do well for my midterm, trials and STPM.... good enough liao....speaking of midterm, its less than 2 weeks away!!! Fuck wei... fuck....the ENTIRE Physical Chemistry comin out!!! Not to mention Inorganic Chemistry!!! Die la.... I havent study a single fuckin shit....I have no intention 2 fail my midterms wei....sighs... wad to do?
sighs.... once again i'm busy like hell in school.... science club is organizing the Maths and Science Week next week and I'm involved in its programmes and its preparation..... damn tired 2day.... preparing the lab.... and LDDS's FoA.....i havnt told Wei Xun yet that I doe wan the director job.... too damn hectic la... plus somemore Interact...... FUCK WEI!!! DAMN HECTIC SIAL!!!!
Today as u know... i skipped tuition... dats because I'm VERY VERY TIRED!! I cant go 2 tuition in this state la.....wont be able to learn a thing....but nvm ... i'll be studying chemistry later...
tomolo is de acting workshop i'm organizing for the form3s in prep for the IU Day.... hopefully many will turn up!!! Tomolo's gonna be fun wei!! I got lotsa things 4 them to do...ahhahaha hopefully Darren and Julian will show their spirit and dedication tomolo.... i'm really counting on them...
okok la... guess i'll shut up now and edit if i feel theres anythin i missed,.....
this is ur cap'n, sigin off!!

Damn......TIRED!!!!!

ISH!!!! Damn tired wei today!!! Very very tired..... even though today basicly got no class but.... still very tired!!! Partly due to the fact that I did NOT sleep a wink last night....hahaha! Damn wei....now very stressful!!! As if my studies isnt givin me any problems, my co-curicular activities is starting to kill me already! Ok, as usual, I got IU for Interact, Maths and Science Week for Science Club, and Festival of Arts for LDDS!!! Damn... i dunno how am i gonna do the juggling act now...Sci Club have to rush as its next week, for FoA.... Wei Xun was kind enough to give me a minimal job count, i'm only in charge of time management and programming. During the meeting, I just HAVE to go open my big mouth la...about the sketch...until suddenly i got the director position for the FoA play.....DAMN! i actually wanna concentrate more on IU's Sketch rather than this.... and I dunno whether I can juggle both rehersal times or not....I wanna talk to Wei Xun about this la.... cannot like this wei... if this goes on... MY STPM HANCUR LA!!! Speaking of STPM, I just feel dat I cant cope with an extra subject la....For those of you who dint know, I'm taking Literature in English as my extra subject in STPM....as if my MathsT, Biology, Chemisty and PA isnt hard enough....Really got no time 2 read the notes la!! Too many things to read ledy! I wanna just drop it.... but Pn.Tan will actually KILL me if I pull dat stunt on her....but...Pn.Noraishah did say... if I feel that really I cant handle... I just drop it.....I SO WANT TO!!! TOO BUSY LA!!! CANNOT COPE!!
Sighs.... who ask me to overestimate myself? Go for so many club interviews....got position in it.... now busy as HELL until got no time 4 my studies....so, this serves as a lesson to all you people out there.... DON'T BITE ANYMORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW!!!!
About today ho... as I said.... TIRED!!!! But overall, today's a very relaxing day for us la... Pn.Yen and Pn.Sadiah absent so, no Chemistry and MUET, so the 1st 3periods very free. Its nice la to have a rest like this after our test....can blow the load off...and took a class photo today....hahaha, i look as ugly as ever...
Today for Bio, as you know, we did a SALIVA practical!!!! Hahhaha, as promised.... PICTURES!!!! Hahahahhahaha! as you can see, i become the "LUCKY" person who gets to 'donate' the saliva.....damn sore my mouth.....imagine.... i only produced 8mL of saliva after opening my mouth for 10 minutes!!!ahahhahaha, overall...ok la today....
oklo....will be updating to add in anything which i've missed... so once again... this is your cap'n, sigin off!

2nd Day and also LAST day of the fuckin Formative test2!!!!

YEAH!!!! Finally the test has ended!!! Hahahahhaha!! The papers today are moderate... not too easy, not too tough. Chemistry was tricky....i'm sure i will NOT ace the paper this time. hehehe, Biology was confusing, but overall, ok la. Oh, yea, did i mention that i TIKAM that fuckin PA1 paper?Hahahha, finally, its over but the WORST is still to come!! Theres this inpending midterms and trials not to mention.... the real STPM!!~! Sighs.... hope i can score for those exams la....sighs...
Today, besides that kaneh test, nothing much really happen today...I'm looking foward to the Acting Workshop which I'm organizing for the Form3s this friday. I'm excited as many of the form3s are actually interested!!!! hahaha, hope they can be commited to Interact. As i mentioned, i will keep an eye on the 2 potentials closely. Really hope they can live up to my expectations;). This friday, I'm planning to let them have total fun by acting out spontanously as well as seriously by letting them practice scripts from IU 2004 and Installation 2005. I personally acted as the lead role in both of the plays and I plan to transend my exprience to them. Besides that, I'm also preparing musicals, action plays, Shakespear, and some monologues for them. Hopefully this will train them to their fullest potential.
LDDS's Festival of Arts(FOA) is coming soon and Wei Xun wants to have a meeting tomorrow...I'm actually worried about myself as I'm afraid that I might be too busy with a lot of stuff! Preparation for IU has already begun and with studies on my back, I'm afraid that its too much for me to handle...As i prayed to God everynight, Please give me the strength to peform this tough juggling act prefectly.... my studies are slacking....damn....
Tomorrow for Biology, we got a FREAKING practical!!! We are gonna do expriment 4 about enzyme activity. We have 2 select 1 guinea pig to 'donate' saliva for this expriment...hahahaha!! GONNA BE FUN!! Will be postin pics for y'all to see!! ahahha. Also, after school today, Shalini actually thought teacher ask us to BRING a guinea pig!! WOW! Imagine that!! Hahahha, I shouldnt have told her the truth la.... it would be fun... having a REAL guinea pig in class!! hahahaha
Tiau ni ma.......I've ran out of words to write liao.... anyway...if i feel i've missed out anything, i'm sure to edit this post or post a new one!!! this is your cap'n, signin off!!

1st Freakin day of the FORMATIVE 2 TEST!!!

ARGH!!! Finally.... the worst is over.... that sial maths paper has passed. Sighs..... I'm so gonna FAIL that fuckin paper! It was so fuckin HARD!! Damn.....sial.... kene screw like hell...Nevertheless... I was actually counting on Maths2's Vector chapter to save my ass but.... out of 7 questions.... I ONLY ANSWERED 2!!!! Damn wei!! I thought Maths2 is easy....kaneh la!!! Damn.... kan ni na.....damn suay...Dunno why....when it comes 2 maths....I suck big time! hahha. Its only a stupid formative test, I dont give a fuck about what I get(I'm prepared to get '0'), i'll just study at my own pace to build up my mathsT, I have no intention to fail in my midterms, trials and of course my STPM. At least a B+ for every subjects for me!!!
Hahaha, setting studies aside....today, just informed the Form3s about the Acting Workshop i'm doing for them this Friday. I really want them to get into the spirit of the club and contribute and make out IU play one of the best. There's a big chance that I want to be involved in the play again as I'm contending for a Theather scholarship in California School of Arts in US. I must somehow prove to the Rotarians that i'm worthy of the scholarship. So, by doing this workshop, I really hope that they can polish up their acting skills, so, we'll have no problems when the real script comes out of the oven. Besides, its fun working and hangin out with them!! Hahaha, from this bunch of Form3s, I've already spotted 2 potentials of gettin in the BOD during this year's board selection (dats IF we are gonna take in F3s la), Darren (Daniel Lau's bro) and Julian. Two of which had shown great interest and dedication in Interact. We'll see how they progress. Hahaha.(INTERACT RULEZ!!!)


Anyway, from the pics I've posted, you can see, first is my table in class(taken after the PA2 paper). Very messed up... I know....AND Ladies and Gentlemen, presenting the fuckin hard and bombasticly hard MATHS 1 paper!!(maybe because I dint study for that cibai paper la) Screw!!Next is the table which I sat on in Coffee Bean Kerrys. As you can see, its very messed up, imagine dat....me, drinkin my Iced Blended Chocolate, studyin....CHEMISTRY!!!Hahahha. Next is ugly me, drinkin my drink...Sighs.....been rainin lately....in a sense its kinda cool that its raining in the evenings cause usually its so damn hot! Finally, God has decided to cool JB down a bit. hahaha Thanks God! You're the BEST! Heres a shot of JB evenin city view after the rain.



Sighs.... just now, been mugging my chemistry for tomolo's test...i dun intend to fail my fav subject...so....been mugging like hell! hahaha, need to cover tomolo's topics (Hess's Law, Equilbria, and Acid-Base Equilibria). Hahaha, wish me luck wei!! Hahaha. Oh yea.... less than 30 mins ago... i took part in Perfect10(987FM)'s "rhyme time with mr. young" and WON!!! hahahahhaha!! I won the 'Take The Lead' OST and ticket passes to watch the movie!! WOW!! Will be postin the pic once I go collect it. Hahhaa, anyway, if i missed out anything, i'll either edit or post a diffrent entry. As usual, this is your fuckin cap'n, signin off!!

Tomorrow test!! DIE!!!

Sighs.... hey guys....tomorrow is my formative 2 test....and i'm openly announcing.....I'M NOT FUC*IN READY!!!! sial.... i memang slacking gila ledy..... mathsT1 so freakin HARD!! I've been staring at the Function chapter for 4 hours now and I dun understand a fuc*ing shit!!! Die...... tiau......from the pic u can see that my desk is as messy as hell, been mugging for the test but dunno why.... i cant seem 2 absorb what I read!!! Now..... given up already. Who cares about a stupid fucking formative test anyway. I'm gonna study at my own pace and excel in my mid-term, trials and STPM. Screw this formative test, fuck it! I'll be postin the results for all of u 2 c, esp my maths....hehehe. then'll you'll know who bad i am. once again....this is ur cap'n signin off.

Long TIME NO see KIDDOS ver2.0!!!!

Yo!! How are all you guys doin?! I know.... it's been a LONG LONG time since I posted anything here. I'm suppose to update on the orientation LAST year but.... I'd had so much fun and so tired that I just completely forgotten about this blog! Its until one of my church-mates told me that my blog was outdated that I remembered that I even HAD a blog!! haha.... Anyway... the past year has been sorta a blessing for me, I've got to meet new friends and experience things that would ultimately change me. I got to hold responsibility that I've never hold before, I got Vice-President in Interact Club, Vice-Secretary in St.Johns Ambulance (Adults), Event Coordinator in LDDS, and Auditor for Science Club. Its very nice and thrilling to know that I got the above positions...especially for Interact and St.Johns Adults as I've been a VERY active member since I was in form 3 (st.johns adults) and form 4 (Interact). But throughout the course of my Lower6 year, I felt as if I've bitten more than I can chew.... sighs....
As for my studies..... terrible.... I may be contridicting myself but I'm starting to regret as to why i take up form6....but overall, I'm LOVIN IT!!! hahahha;)
As for people.... as usual, every school has its own snobbish handsome dude who thinks they are all that. These people have the looks and instantly became popular overnight. I wont indulge in my anger here as I intend to make this post the FIRST decent post in my blog. hahaha. But this year, I'm very impressed with the Form 3s. They've proved themselves as a lively, active, interesting, playful and friendly bunch of people I've ever seen and its my pleasure and honour to work with them in LDDS and most of all Interact! hahaha, never forgetting my Interact BODs whom with the Form5s I've became close to, peps like Desmond (my president), Daniel Goh(Sec), Alven and Fareez(Club serv Dir), Daniel Lau (Funding Dir)and Chen Yeong (sargeant at arms). These people are THE MOST dedicated and responsible bunch of people I've ever seen! I'll eleborate on them in posts to come and PICS!! hahahha, but really, these people, they are really really great and I'm glad that we've known each other though Interact!! hahhaha
Sighs..... I'll be updating more in hours/days to come. Expect to see a brand new blog next few days but I'll probably slow down when exams are nearing... STPM juz kills man!! Oh yea,.... juz memorize a formula 2day.... ahhahaha, "The number of days to STPM is inversely proportional to one's stress level".
Once again.... this is cap'n signin off!!